The short of it

I've been better, but I've been worse. So I'd say that I'm doin pretty daggone good :)

I guess I'm just too blessed to stay stressed (Dad) and I've been reminded of that recently by Mr Craig DeLarge's Contentment Tee.

My mindstate is so above my problems that they can only touch me

"My help cometh from the LORD" (Psalm 121:2a)

I've been going through a bit of a situation. I thought I wanted (or -needed-) someone to talk to. There was no one to hear. So, like when I was younger, I realized that I -don't- need anyone to talk to. Not really. Though I did vent a bit.

“I turn my head to the east, i don't see nobody by my side
I turn my head to the west...still nobody in sight
So I turn my head to the north, swallow that pill that they call pride
That old me’s dead and gone, but that new me'll be alright cause

Cause:
Oooh! I’ve been travelin on this road too long
Just tryin’ to find my way back home
The old me’s dead and gone
Dead and gone”
(Dead and Gone – T.I. ft Justin Timberlake)

I just don't care to take the time to complain, and no one really cares to hear, anyway. When they're happy, they don't want you to drag them down. When they're not happy, they have their own problems to worry about. Generally busybodies will listen, but for all the wrong reasons. Nothing good comes of complaining. You take life by the horns and you -make- what you want out of it. With God's help, of course.

Psalm 121:
1 I will lift up mine eyes unto the hills, from whence cometh my help.
2 My help cometh from the LORD, which made heaven and earth.

-All- of my help cometh from the LORD.
Just because He's carrying me right now doesn't mean that He's not letting my feet drag and telling me to stand up along the way...

I Walk better on my knees; but first, I have to get back to -truly- Walking...

Conundrum

I don't have trouble finding females.
I have trouble finding females that are worth the trouble of finding...

or keeping.


God? With all of my heart, I believe that Shee is for me, but I need You to point out the truth, and keep me on that path...

God???

Dreams are meant to be what -can- be and/or what -will- be, right? Then my future is haunted by my past because my dreams are imbued with images of her. Shee wakes me up, faithfully, by 7 -every- morning. I've been trying to sleep earlier to make up for it, but time means nothing to dreams and the subconscious.
I know that everything has a purpose, but I'm -very- hard-pressed to see this one...
Please, Father. A little clarity would be -much- appreciated! Amen

Things aren't great, but they'll get better.

Faith



When you can't see the next step, and you're pretty sure that you're pretty sure that you -don't- want to see what you're presently standing on...it's all that you've got. So it had -better- be enough! :P
Strengthen your faith now. You may have to Walk tomorrow.

Your silence speaks volumes...

Many things have reinforced to me the value of keeping my mouth shut sometimes. Most recent of all would be relationship issues.
Unfortunately, I usually try to use words to fix something, and then make my actions conform. When words are what got you in a bad place to begin with, and the person with whom you want to communicate refuses to be around long enough to see your actions...all you have is regret.
and that sucks.

...honestly. The older that I get, the more I value the ability to learn without having to experience...

...

everyone likes to believe that they're special. no one actually likes to know how special they really -aren't-, though.

in my particular instance, a certain person's response would be nice...

-.-

Today is just one of those days when everything just seems to be harder than it actually is, as the ghosts of the past shade the possibilities of the future.
"Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart." (Psalm 37:4).
...God? My "desires" have a name...
"Whatever my lot, thou hast taught me to say, 'it is well with my soul' "
"God, Give us the grace to accept with serenity the things that cannot be changed, Courage to change the things which should be changed, And the wisdom to distinguish the one from the other."

In nomine Patris, et Filli, et Spiritus Sancti...Amen.

"Am I Having a 'Good Day'??"

I have asked God for "peace that passes all understanding"
I fill my quiet moments with trying to understand it
I am endlessly thoughtful

Besides: "good" is a state of mind.
and, as "of the mind",
mine is in a State ruled by me.
So, if i am -not- doing "good",
then, perhaps, it is my -definition- that is faulty.
Or, perhaps, I should not be the one
who is ruling my mind...

I have remembered how to relinquish control to Him.
He has never let me down.
And, sometimes, it is easier to follow
then it is to lead...

Yes, I am doing "good". How are you??

(And, yes. For all you grammarians out there, I know that "good" should be "well". I just don't care. "Good" works better for my purposes)

question

How do you love someone who claims that they aren't in love with you? From a distance? What if you were engaged with them??
What is the acceptable emotional distance. when is it smarter to push a little, vice letting come what may?

And, if this doesn't work out, how could I even -begin- to love again???

Never Love Again (something that I wrote on the subject in regards to another chick).